Um, Am I Going Crazy......?

Okay, let me start with I am a huge Michael Jackson fan (please no hurtful comments about him) I look up to him as a singer and as a good person. I am 13 years old btw. I seriously listen to his music all day and all night, i think he is amazing! So anyway, tonight I was on youtube and I randomly came across this video called "proof michael jackson is alive" I watched it and then I watched like 15 other videos similar to it. It had so much proof like that michael wrote in his diary in 2008, "I need to excape all this. Maybe I should fake a heartattack and then come back in 2009. (yeah right!)" And so on... it just seems so weird because I thought people who beleived this were crazy and now... I just feel so weird.. and I feel like I've been lied to.. and I feel like michael might come back one day.. and i feel crazy. What do you think about this and do you think im crazy?? :/ please help